A Friendship MissedApril, 2020I just wanted to record some thoughts and feelings. I am a man in my early 50’s and I have a tights fetish.I met a young woman on a chat. She was 20 and bi and we chatted for hours. At 5ft 3, she was petite with brown hair, although that was her description, as I never saw a picture of her. She had worked in a café prior to the Coronavirus lockdown, but wasn’t sure if she would go back. I had asked what she wanted to do, but she wasn’t sure. She was single, as her last boyfriend had messed her around. I would never and will never understand why.She lived 200 miles away from me, near the coast. Close enough to smell the salt in the air she had said. As we talked, she told me she enjoyed walking on the beach. We discussed that she liked indie music and in particular Roslyn, by Bon Iver and St Vincent. In her words, it gave her goose bumps. I suggested she listen to One Last Night by Vaults. That gets close to giving me goose bumps.I include these details to show that the conversation had flowed and wasn’t all on one topic!She never judged me for who I was, or what I was into, in fact we seemed to get along great. She was fun and had a sense of humour. She seemed to like me, because unlike many other men, I hadn’t immediately sent her a ‘dick pic’. Esenyurt Escort Far from it, I was respectful and was genuinely interested in her. Although many years her senior, I learnt a lot from her, about women in general and their attitude towards men (and women) and relationships.There was a time where I made a comment and thought I may have offended her and apologised. She said it was fine and she understood what I had meant and how I had meant it and I realised, and we discussed, that her opinion really mattered to me. I realised, I think we both realised, there was a connection. I do not want to suggest we were going to be soul mates, but there was a real connection between the two of us. She had been totally honest with me about who she was and I was honest with her about who I was, how old I was and that I was married. I had never claimed to be anything other than what I really was.One of the chats we had, she was (we both were) feeling horny. So, I described a fantasy meeting between us, where I took control and gave her an orgasm. She had said there was a submissive streak in her. Although I am sub when I dress, I can switch and she brought out the dominant side of me. I detailed what would happen. She enjoyed it and let’s just say it was a successful Esenyurt Escort Bayan climax!A later day, she returned the favour, with how the two of us had been caught in the rain and had to strip off on getting home and where that lead to. Again, a successful climax for both of us.I didn’t get chance to chat with her over the following weekend, and tried contacting her on the Monday. Although she was on line, I didn’t speak to her and tried a few times. I had genuinely missed her. She made my day when I heard from her. Not to put too fine a point on it, she made my heart skip a beat!In hindsight, I tried too hard. I think I came across very badly and now she won’t respond to my messages. I had tried on the Monday and left it a day or two and then tried once more. I just wanted to apologise. I left her the following message and will respect her decision as to whether she responds. Hi ?????. I was hoping to talk to you, but it is obvious I have offended you and you do not want to talk to me. I shouldn’t care, because I barely know you, but as we said during our chats, your opinion meant a lot to me and it still does. I am gutted that your opinion of me now is such you do not want to chat.If you do not reply, I will not bother you again. I do Escort Esenyurt not want you scared to come on here if I am logged in. Thanks for not judging me.I just want to say that I am sorry. And if nothing else, we could be friends and chat occasionally. I have a seen a few winters and have a bit of life experience. If I can ever help you in any way, please just ask. All the very best, you are a lovely woman.Good luck in life! xx I know that anyone who reads this will say ‘No fool like an old fool’. And I agree!But I would also say that I never had illusions we would run off together, but I really did want us to be friends. What were /are my feelings towards this young lady? Lust, Infatuation or Love? I suspect a little of all.How can you fall in love with someone you have never met, or even seen? Because sometimes there is a deeper connection than that. She is such a lovely young woman and I think about her every day.Why have I written this? Because I needed to get the thoughts out of my head and onto the page to make them clearer for me.I know her name, her chat name and the county where she lives. I have deliberately not written it here.I doubt her life is poorer for me not being in it, but mine is poorer for not having her in mine! Even in such a small way as chatting on line.She made me no promises, she didn’t ‘steal’ my heart, because that was never her intention. But without knowing it, she has a piece of my heart. I just wish we could have been friends.Please feel free to tell me I am mad, I won’t disagree! But I also cannot change how I feel!